Love Pink [Chapter 3]

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“So it's not gonna be easy. It's gonna be really hard. We're gonna have to work at this every day, but I want to do that because I want you. I want all of you, forever, you and me, every day. Will you do something for me, please? Just picture your life for me? 30 years from now, 40 years from now? What's it look like? If it's with him, go. Go! I lost you once, I think I can do it again.”

I looked on as Noah poured his heart out to Allie. The Notebook was that one film Nicki and I would watch every time we got together. No matter how many times I watched this film tears escaped, I'm a sucker for romance and deep down so was Nicki as she shed a few tears over the monologue. There was something in me, however, that pulled at me. I was as if the movie was trying to direct me. I listened to Noah tell Allie everything I essentially felt the need to say to Nicki. Suddenly it was so much more than just a story. I stuck my spoon back in the half empty mint chocolate chip carton and set it down on the coffee table in front of me, before pulling my legs up to my chest and resting my chin on them. I was really nervous, I didn't want it to show, but I was. Speaking my mind felt necessary but what if it made things go awry? Nicki sensed something was wrong and set her own butter pecan carton down, picking up a tissue instead.

“Maria?”

I turned my head slightly to where I was facing her, “what?”

“What's wrong?”

“What makes you think something is wrong?”

“Well, for one you're not even watching the movie anymore, and two you put your ice cream down. I've never seen you not finish any kind of dessert.” She said with a playful smirk.

I smiled at her attempt to lighten the mood but my mind was still plagued with runaway thoughts. Nicki pulled my legs from underneath me and set them on her lap, gently rubbing her hand up and down my shins. “What's up?”

I knew no matter what I said right now, it could never really be the right thing. So I might as well just spit it out.

“What exactly are we doing?” I asked her.

“Well I thought we were watching The Notebook & crying like babies.” She laughed.

“I'm serious, Nicki.”

“What do you mean?”

She sat back to look at me fully, trying to understand. Just say it Maria, you can do this.

“Well…before…when this first happened, I didn’t know what to make of us. I know you don't always have to put labels on things. But it’s been a few months now &…I just really want to know where I stand….in your life.”

She sighed & stood up. Shit, this can’t be good. I knew it; I knew I should have NEVER asked her. Why the hell did I have to open my stupid mouth? These past few months I had barely had time to spend with her as it is. Now, it was all about to end. She was pacing the floor, her hands toying with each other.

“Do…do you remember that day? In Canada?” she asked me.

How could I forget? One of the best days in my life.

“Yes.”

“Well…..when you left, I…I talked to Drake. I told him about you & about me. I told him I was in love with you. But…I'm in love with him too. I know it’s so unfair & completely selfish of me to keep you both but I don't want to let either of you go. That’s why I haven’t exactly tried too hard to bring up our relationship. I figured as long as either of you didn’t ask, I didn’t have to make a decision. That I would just cross that bridge when we got to it.”

“So you’re still with him?”

“Yes…n-no. Not the way you're saying it. I wasn’t lying when I said he wasn’t my boyfriend. But he’s been there for me for so many things & he understands me in a way that not a lot of people can. We haven’t done anything in a while. I didn’t think it would be fair until I had a chance to say something to the both of you & he understands that.”

“So he knows you're still with me?”

“…yes.”

“But you know it can’t go on like this. You know that eventually, you're going to have to choose one of us.”

“Yes, yes eventually I know. But please, don't make it right now. You have to understand, this is all so new to me. I've never ever done this before. I have so many emotions & so many feelings I don't understand & so many things to think about. I just don't know what to do. I don't want to hurt either of you & I don't want to lie to you. But I…I don't know what to do right now.”

She flopped down next to me, tears stinging her eyes, I could tell. 

I wanted to scream. I wanted to slap her. I wanted so badly to be strong & walk out on her for deceiving me like this. But I just…couldn’t. When I first came out, I didn’t know what to do. My mind & heart were so torn. What’s right & what’s wrong is always a constant battle in my head. And I imagine it must be harder for her. So many eyes watching her; so many people that look up to her. And it’s not like I didn’t know she still talked to him, I just…I don't know. I didn’t want to believe she still had feelings for him. Plus, I didn’t want to be mad because we hadn’t officially decided that we were exclusive or anything. We haven’t even done anything since that night. The fear of becoming too clingy was a constant one. Onika had always been the type to need her space & I was always afraid that I would end up annoying her. But thinking that on one of these nights when she was calling me from the road she could have been in his arms really bothered me. Had this been anyone else, I would have left. But this is Nicki. She's not a malicious person. She's sweet & loving & she wouldn’t hurt anybody intentionally. But should I just put up with her confusion, knowing there’s a huge risk she could just totally put my heart & the microwave & melt it? No. but I was going to do it anyway.

I put my arms around her shoulders, pulling her close to me & rocked her slowly.

“Nicki, I know this is a seriously stressful time. And I know you're freaking out about all of this. But you have to make a decision. Not saying today, or even tomorrow. But eventually, somebody’s going to have to get hurt. But I want you to know that no matter what happens, I will always be here for you, ok? No matter how much you think it’s going to hurt me, please just always be honest. Don't keep anything from me.”

“I'm so sorry. I promise I will be nothing but honest with you from now on. And I'm not going to drag this on. I think finally…finally we all need to talk.”

“Nicki, you don't have to rush this. You can take your time.”

“No, I think has gone on long enough. I think I'm finally ready.

She kissed me, her tongue readily awaiting entrance to my mouth. I let her massage my lips with hers for a while. While sucking my bottom lip, her fingers found the hem of my shirt & pulled it up over my head. Before the shirt hit the ground, she was working on the drawstring of my sweats. I tried to get her clothes off but she was moving so fast. She was clearly on a mission. I lifted my hips & let her rip the fabric from them. Wow, she's aggressive today. Moments later, she was cupping my breast with 1 hand & massaging me with the other. Her lips were at my nipple & her fingers were probing deeper & deeper inside me. One, then two, then three; her thumb making soft circles on my pleasure center. Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhh, it felt so good. The feeling of her teeth nibbling at the taut skin of my breasts was like nothing I had ever felt before. Oh, god, don't stop.

Before long, her lips had found their way back to mine, kissing sweetly, licking, tasting.

“I love you, Maria.” She whispered to me. “I love you so much.”

“I love you too, Nicki.”

I've said it a million times & I’ll say it a million more.

She slid down onto her knees on the floor in front of me; my legs over her shoulders as she kissed my thighs. I was already shaking. She hadn’t done this before & I didn’t want to pressure her, but I’d be lying if I hadn’t been dying to find out what it would feel like as she pleased me; her lips to mine.

She was getting close; I could feel her sweet breath on my center. Is she really doing this?!?!? Ohmygodohmygodohmygod!!!!!!! She used her nose to nudge against me before licking me slow. Uuuuugggggghhhhhh, yeeeeeeeees! She used her fingers to spread me & licked me again…and again……and again. My knees were bent, toes pointed as I let my feet rest on her back, holding her in position. My fingers curled in her hair & my eyes squeezed shut, just in case this is a dream. I refuse to wake up before this is over. Her slender fingers were easing their way back inside me now, moving rapidly. Had she really not done this before? Man. she is GREAT at this. My hands are at my breasts now; twisting & pinching slowly. Yes, it’s right there, please don't stop! I looked down at her & noticed her looking back at me; her cat like eyes glistening with desire. Fuck, she's so beautiful. This is it. Her fingers are in overdrive & her lips wrapped tightly around my pearl, humming & sucking until finally I explode, screaming her name to the heavens. She wiped her face with her hand before coming back up to kiss me. There really is nothing like tasting yourself from the lips of someone you love; both of your unique flavors mixing. And we tasted delicious.

She pulled away from me, sitting back with a finger balanced on her lip. She was trying hard to hide her braggadocios smile, but I could see. It’s the same expression I had on my face the first time with her. Knowing I had done it right & that she loved every second. I cut my eyes at her. We would see who had the last laugh, alright. Because now…it was my turn.